inside the mind of a survivor

Inside the mind of a survivor If I had been a better wife A better mother If I kept the house cleaner If I didn’t ask for so much If I had sex with him when he wanted it If I didn’t ask questions If I cuddled more If I did the laundry better If…

Domestic Violence: Inside the madness

I kept his secret long enough Making excuses every time I believed his lies About how his exes all did him wrong I ignored all the red flags After a while I felt I deserved it I wasn’t a good enough wife I wasn’t a good enough mother I allowed him to isolate me I…

Been through it

There was once upon a time Where I thought I could Conquer the world Now I am hustling just to make It through this struggle I am a single mom I am bipolar I am a pot head I am a survivor of domestic violence I have been broke I have lived in transitional living…

Hating you and loving you

Hating you and loving you I hate your guts I love you so much I still remember all the good times we shared They play on repeat I know that we don't belong together Too much pain All the lies and control I hate that your memory creeps up Like the monster in the dark…

Make up

Make up You made me the master of makeup I had to learn To cover up your bruises I learned that cover up made it easy to avoid questions Eye liner make the bruises hard to see Eye shadow hid the swelling Concealer hid your hand prints Lip stick hid my busted lip Blush hid…

Survivor Not a Victim

I am not a victim of domestic violence I am a survivor Every hit game me the strength to leave He thought he had broken me down Instead he showed his own insecurities Every insult and bruise fueled my motivation I survived his hell Now I know just how strong I am I found out…